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Dear Dr. Follin,
You visited my school today and I was moved by your speech. I know I am not supposed to give information out to strangers, but you seem to be the only one who really understands me. I tried very hard to get up to you on the stage, but I was held back by my teacher. She said I was a waste of your time. I know I am not worth it, but I just want to be noticed. I am an only child, but my dad has bone cancer and my mom hates me. I am a letdown, a disappointment, and waste of time. I wish that people would actually care about me. My story is complicated though… In third grade I was in a car accident, I was later diagnosed with A.M.P.S (Amplified Pain Syndrome) and severe depression. Your speech moved me and I was bawling by the end of it. I really don’t know what else to say. You don’t need to respond though, like I said I am a waste of time. I have tried to commit suicide 3 times in that last month and I just don’t understand what’s happening. My doctors hate me, my family gave up on me, and I just hate life. But, thanks for making me survive one more day. I want to share a poem with you if that is okay. I wrote it and it is pretty bad, but like you said today, your life is worth living. So here it is…
I am different
NO one understands me
Poems are my heaven and earth is my horror
Life is not worth living anymore
Hurt
Scared
This is my life
But at least I am the one living it |